Goodbyes doesn't hurt, flashbacks does.

Grandpa, I will miss you. And I love you too.

Hi dearest readers, just received a phonecall from penang earlier ,

And it was mummy, she sounded so moody and 'grandfather had passed away last night at 1opm..' seemed like had been forced out from her mouth.

A tinge of sadness enveloped me, ): I nearly tear but didn't though.

Mom and Dad were currently attending church camp at penang,

but sister and me stayed at local cause of my O'level this year.

However, sadly this funeral have to be held today, so mom and dad gotta cancelled their 5-days trip and fly to KL, to attend this funeral..

The money spent on the trip was all wasted, it's a pity.

At the start, I was asking God, " Why? Why at this time? where my parents were happily on their holiday's trip? "

But as I know, God wouldn't give me an answer on that.

Because He's a God, and what He did must have a reason behind it..

Even so, my heart was complaining God just now.

And right now, my sis and I have to stay here cause mom said she had no time to rush back here to fetch us there.

And so, which made me even more upset as I couldn't even take a look at my grandfather..

And they'll probably back this weekend, sigh.

)':

I just realised, I had lost both my grandfather and they both passed away this year.

One is because of accident while this's because of sickness.

So right now, I only left with two grandma..

I guessed mom would be terribly upset with this than anyone else, hope she'll hang in there and be healthly !

God, please watch over my mom and bless her at the same time.

This goes the same to all my relatives in KL as well .

"Grandpa, I will miss you. And I loved you too" should have said this when he's still there..

My sadness flows along with this song