You want me to let you go?

People cry, not because they're weak.

It's because they've been strong for too long.

Hai again.

Yay, tmrw left with mother tongue listening compre :)

and every subjects' had been over, i'm soo relieved. Ha.

Well, physics paper didn't go that well today.. was I tired or something?

uhmm. didn't managed to complete part C and D!

Pfttt..

Oh, it's okay! :D yeah, i have to keep positive.

God'll surely send his big blessings over me, I'm sure.

And praise Him as well, as for other papers, they went quite good, i would say.

Heehee ;)

but..silent sigh again.

Readers, I seriously have too much problems unsolved..too many troubles to worry about.. ):

All these have to do with Humans. I swear.

Why friends are always such a problem to everybody? don't get it.

Actually, I don't wish to talk about all these burden anymore..

I'm sorry though, i guess this blog of mine had became the

top world 'most emotional' blog.

Well , maybe there's others out there which were more emotional than mine, so yeah

Sigh sigh, i need to take a deep breath.

Phew.

My family was great. My daily life was great. And my God was great :)

The only thing that wasn't was..

Relationship stuffs.

That was total terrible, i meant hard to handle. I couldn't managed to do well enough for that area.

Or maybe was I thinking too much again?

Umm yeah. maybe I was.. yeah, I think so.

Okay.

I shall gave the matter to God to decide once again :)

Whatever my problem is, will be God's problem as well. He will take care of everything.

I don't want to bother anymore.

Tiresome.

Honestly, to people who also encounter the same ugly problems as me, here's my advice:

Just look upon God, when people around you disappoint you.

If you have no God, then look up in the sky.

I'm hundred percent serious. Just do it. It's harmless.

Then look yourself in the mirror and say,

'I love myself . ' and smile big big!

Here's a song to describle my unpleasant day:

Letting go wasn't something that anyone else could easily do.

If you could, I could only humbly admit that I couldn't..

I wanted to, the thing is, my heart wants you to stay.

But I don't know how to say..

And if you have made up your mind and ready to let me go completely,

it's alright. i'll be fine.

God has told us not to hold onto the past and taught us to move on..

Perhaps you can do it but I'm sorry. I couldn't bring myself to leave you, not missing you.

Really sorry, I can't do it..

If the way I'm being like this hurts you more, then please come and teach me how to let my love ones go.

I am willing to learn humbly from you :)

If all these things I had wrote, made you think that I'm selfish..

That made you think that I only cared about myself..

Then, I want you to know that I'm hurting as much as you're hurting now.

Do you think I wanted to feel like this..??

The last time, you made your stand and said it's impossible for the both of us..

Sparing a thought for you, let's be friends. that's what I said.

Didn't you said okay..?

I want to explain clearly, that I'm not possesive.okay?

In the first place, you took no effort at all..

You showed me you wasn't interested at all.

No texts, no phone calls. Shouldn't you know that these are all the basic stuffs..?

Upset, disappointments..because of you. But I decided to pushed aside all those feelings for the sake of you.

I don't hope to spoil everything..

For V day, I gave you something..

To show you I love and care for you.

So, am I selfish..? Did you spare a thought for me too?

Till now, it's over..

Broken hearts are hard to mend. However,

I still cared for you, sent texts to you asking how are you.

Have been a few times, but you didn't even reply me one..

Again, upset, disappointments.. But, nevermind it's okay! :) I told myself and God.

I will try more till you reply..

So tell me, am I still selfish..?

If you fellow friends think I was, In God's eyes, if I was selfish , you're actually more selfish than me.

It makes sense , right?

But I love you with all my heart and all. So I don't judge you like that.. (:

Even though I had to try for ten years, I'm willing to do.

Even though you made me upset again, it's still fine with me :)

You want me to let you go?

Sorry, my heart couldn't..