You're the one I've been waiting for..

Every time I trust somebody, they show me why I shouldn't :(

Well, just had a big cried just now..

It's nothing much actually.. Just because of a thousand bad reasons that made me to.

Lots of mixed feelings, so I just sobbed out everything I could.

Cried my heart out in the toliet so mummy, daddy and sis won't hear..

Finally, I knew all my friends can't be trusted at all.

And I don't have to bother about my families anymore too.

The more I care for these people, the more hurt my heart became.

Today at xin yuan community, I'd fake a smile the whole day.

I was TRULY unhappy about something and they went on and rub more salt on my wound.

They just won't know how to care for a friend, and what's the point of going there and care for the elderly who you don't even know?

I was feeling terrible so I had no choice and went to text him.

At least, that makes me feel less upset.

But again, I went back home and hide in the toliet.

And drained my face in tears.

And crying out really does helped a little.

I feel better now and in fact, I told Lord that I'll still continue to put on the fake smile.

Even though it's hard. For me. Now.

But yeah, I'm just different from other people. So they won't understand a small bit of me.

All of them.

I know this very well..

Umm, writing all these out here seems to soothe my mood.

I hope to get this COMPLETELY over when I go to my sleep tonight.

In fact, they're my close friends and I hate that they're treating me this way.

Oh well!

Can someone beeps in and comfort me?

-For all kinds of reasons, I want to go the sea-side to scream my lungs out loud!