Love only waits for one thing, the right moment.

Was being friends like this way?

Seeing me walking by and pretending you don't see me.

Hello guys, it's been a while since I'm here.

You know, school was unbreatheable. Had a geog test yesterday, honestly i think i did badly.

Urggh, I could only expect for the worst yeah?

Hopefully , with God everything turns out fine..

Frankly, I think I'm stubborn. A dull and boring girl and most of times, anti-social.

I appeared to be decent, studious..However, sometimes I wished I could change myself.

Not for anyone sake, but I hoped to be a girl of what I have always wanted to be.

I deeply wished I could change my point of view towards love, friends and life.

I wished I could be like much stronger than right now, just like some other girls out there.

With strong confidence and leading a not-much-problems life; without problems appearing one by one in my face.

I wanted to be a girl who could possibly and easily get the things she wanted, badly.

I was greedy, with high expectations for myself and perfect dreams set in my mind.

I wanted so much more, even the whole universe, I wished I could have all of it.

Filled with so many hopes and desires,

that I couldn't possibly put them into words.

My mind contradicts with you all people's mind , I agreed with something that nobody thinks it's something that can be agreeable.

I'm sensitive to certain things where all of you don't.

I laughed at things which people don't.

I did things which people normally wouldn't.

I see things differently from you everybody.

At times, I wondered why would I born on this planet where most of the times, I can't blend in and I don't fit into places. No matter how hard I tried.

I couldn't. I just can't..

Most of the times, I tried to kept positive towards EVERYTHING I FACED.

But sooner or later, the positive feeling in me flew away.

Or was it me who did not secure it safely inside?

And readers, what I had just wrote, if it really dampened your spirit or mood of the day,

please excuse me.

Because I don't think I can possibly live through today

without writing them down here.

I couldn't possibly ignore this terrible , horrible feeling I'm getting right now.

But I also couldn't find anyone else to speak to.

This is why I had to blurt it out.Right.Here.

And.It's.all.about.things.that.keep.me.not.moving.

I shouldn't have kept my butt sticking right here.

I think your friends knew about everything and the girl-me already.

And I guess, all of them hated me for hurting you this badly or making you suffered.

And because I appeared to be stronger than you, I gained no sympathy and you did.

I was hurting as much as you and no one gives a shit.