Bottle it up and take it away!

Love is the answer.
You're my gift.

Summer is here. Spring is over.
And in Singapore, everything still seemed the same -.- --I meant the weather.
And once again, I quitted my payless vacation job &
have already got myself another new job at an Insurance company.
Frankly, there were tons of reasons of why I decided to resign..
But I don't wish to share them right here.

The hourly rate offered by Insurance company was quite attractive &
all I need to do was to sit comfortably at the office and do my task.
And I only have to report to work 3 days a week, 4hrs for each day.
Brilliant right? :)
Well, initially I assumed it was. But actually soon after you got to know what the job requires you to do,
it no longer appears so!
Sigh sigh. May the Lord continue to be my strength, wisdom & knowledge yeah! :)

Anyway, polytechnic life was actually quite amazing.
Well again, this's just my assumption :)
I don't dare to say anything positive about it though,
I'm still not sure how it works, how fun it is or how tough it may get..
But i'll be always depending on my Lord for guidance.
I meant He knows all of our future no? He simply knows everything.
He knows what we're going to face the next second, and He will surely be here to protect everyone of us.
So yup. God will take care of my poly life; I give Him the control.

:D

But basically, I've been enjoying my life quite a lot, especially after my national exams which took place last year! :)
Life is slowing down its pace and I'm feeling happy & loved most of the time. Thanks to someone. :*)

-Despite of my tight schedule, the sudden thought of you in my mind, always drew a smile on my face. -

I also have been shopping quite a lot, which I SERIOUSLY have to reduce abit.
I'm truly trying my best to quit being a 'shopaholic'. :/
Cause shopping too much will only drain out my money, and sometimes too much of a good thing can be bad too.
Meanwhile, the days I'm not working I'll be helping with housechores.
And it's really beneficial- I got to learn quite a number of housechores skills from my mum haha. :D



To be continued..

Sweetness in Starlight.

Some people come in your life as blessings,

Others come in your life as lessons.

Good day readers, it's the 24th day of the new year 2012

And things are starting to begin differently for me.

What I meant was in terms of both materially, physically and emotionally.

First of all, GCE O'level results were out.

Honestly, I didn't do very well & the results weren't satisfying.

But many things happened, even though it was disappointing at first,

my parents still rejoiced.

I was at peace and I cried in tears of thankfulness once I got home that day. :)

It was a miracle. ( No joke) It really was because

All along in my graduation years, I've been failing my English subject.

Even so, I couldn't figure out why.

Knowing that that year I'll be having my national examination, I was truly desperate and troubled.

In fact yes, I admitted that I hadn't told anyone about the horrible feeling I was having ALL THE TIME.

Because what's the point yeah?

The one who is sitting for the exam is me, not anyone else..

Everytime I tried, I failed. Over and over again.

'Defeated' was the only word I met and had convinced myself into..

Still remember? I had blogged about how I had actually screwed up my English paper on O'level, and I was reminded by this matter almost every night before I went to bed.

I couldn't be more scared.

Time flies, O'level's results release were getting near.. but I knew very well that all I could do was to PRAY. And I did.

Cause what was done couldn't be undone.

The only way to was with God, and anything will be possible through Him.

So yeah, I comforted myself that for this time, I will get a pass grade for my English.

So what if I didn't pass in my Prelimary exams?

It doesn't even matter anymore.

God will do a change for THIS time round. :)

So I held onto this belief till the very day I received my results..

And today, I wanna praise my Lord that He is indeed real and He did not let me down.

Because you can see it by yourself guys, without this awesome God I would probably be on the newspaper..

I would have kill myself, yeah.

Because if you've known me well enough, I'm a girl who can't accept failure .

I've chosen my favourite course, Wellness, lifestyle & spa management course at RP. Yay :)

***

To be honest, God's really good to me.

In fact, he has already blessed me a lot more than I expected.

That day I went shopping with my mum at a department store,

I was telling my mum that I'm intending to get myself a perfume. For new year. Hee :)

Well at first, it was merely a thought of getting it..

I intended to browse through the perfume section first before deciding my favourite one.

(Because to buy a branded & 100% genuine one, it isn't cheap , guys! )

All along my mom, my sis and me used perfume.

The three of us loved it so much that we often used it.

And especially me who is so into girly stuffs, I wanted to have my own perfume. :)

And thank God that it's the first time my mom agreed fully to what I asked.

Yeah partly it's also because she's interested in them. (:

So I was browsing for Designers' Perfumes- Beyonce, Victoria Secret , Gucci and DKNY.

They're the only ones I would go for.

I was actually more to the Gucci idea because that was the brand I have always wanted to own.

But sometimes, it's really not up to your will..

While we were walking around, looking and smelling at those perfumes (they mostly ranged from $15.00 to $35.00) , the disappointed me was distracted and caught up by those sweet-looking sandals.

Because as I'd just said, those perfumes we smelled, were not to my liking. :(

The sandals-slippers looking shoes were on $19.90 sale so I ended up buying a pair of beach-looking slippers and a pair sandals with light pink roses.. :D

Lovely!

Afterwards my mom and I went back again- smell and test for nice-scent-perfumes.

But haha I think we're wise enough to approach a division retailer this time round.

The filipino guy promoted the Designers Perfumes which are on sale, and He got us into very attentive listening about the 'biography' of individual perfume.

Besides the dry part, he gave us sampling of smelling perfumes (where one spray of perfume is sprayed on each small slip of fliter paper & then handed to us for smelling)

Its texture felt kind of like the chemistry experiment's fliter paper to me. Hah.

His service was really good but we didn't tried a lot of brand as I already roughly knew what I was looking for.

Altogether we've tried Beyonce Heat Rush ( it smelled fruity which was really nicee! I like it! ),

Guess (it was more of a caramel smell.. So yeah, I was abit disappointed by the scent) and a few of Paris Hilton's collection.

Guess what? In the end, I bought home a Paris Hilton's South Beach :)

Intially I was hoping to buy Beyonce's however, it cost $55.00 (sale's price) with its pathetic 50ml..

There was a few minutes where I argued with myself that it's already a good buy because it cost $98.00 originally.

But oh well, I'm still a student.

That what I thought again.

I'm actually an unstoppable shopaholic girl when it comes to shopping.

Because I'm Audrey myself, I knew that very well.

If I DON'T control myself right in time, I'm gonna buy whatever that caught my eyes .

I took a deep breath and reminded myself not to fall into the trap of becoming a MATERIAL QUEEN. :)

So yeah, Paris Hilton's was more than good enough. It was $49.00 (sale's price) with 100ml where originally was $100.00.

Yup, I was all over the moon! :D

I mean, where on earth will you find a 100% genuine designer perfume for $49.00?

It's a rare chance, seriously!

But if it's a gift from God, it'll be possible.no.matter.what.

:)

And I deeply knew, all these things were in fact blessings from my dearest Jesus!

Give thanks to Him.

And in the end, I'm not a spoilt child- I told God that I will use the pay from my vacation's job to pay for my own shopping expenses.

He will be glad to extreme I think. Gee :)

I'm seventeen right now, that doesn't mean I'm older, I will naturally spend more than the younger me.

I'm seventeen right now, that means I have enough maturity to toss the 'past spoilt me' away and become stronger, self-reliant & independent.

I would dare to say I'm seventeen right now, and it's time for me to help to reduce my parents' burden.

=)

Many people out there dislike perfumes, I couldn't figure out every.single.time.

Many times, I thought perhaps I was different from the rest.

Yes, I always was.

But it took me some time to think and realise that, perfume is an individual interest and it takes one to use his or her own heart to appreciate the beautiful scent of perfume.

The smell of Perfume can take us to another world sometimes,

tempting us to yearn more of them and causing us to fall in love with them.

So actually. Everybody would love perfume. Unless he or she is allergic to it. (That's the exceptional case.)

The thing is, it takes the right perfume to capture you. ♥

And it takes the right owner to meet and appreciate his/her right perfume.

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My Prom Night'11 photo are above.

Spent lavishly on hair curling & styling, make-up which was done by a beauty specialist

Not forgetting the once-wore-never-wear-again-prom dress, heels, clutch, earrings

But still Didn't regretted going even though my prom night's expenses was truly a Bomb.

Because it was a memorable memory that couldn't be bought with all the money you had.

Yet I held back.

Kinapped my heart like nobody else.
Lord, if many says love is a chemistry
Is it possible to undo this love's reaction of mine?

:D Quitted my first vacation job (old one) YESS! and then starting from tues, I was working at a new job.
At first, I thought it was just a simple shoe department store, but then.. it was a variety of accessories like scarfs, hats, earrings, handbags..,etc to shoes for all ages.
I am like, WOW. & PHEW at the same time. Honestly speaking. :)

But. I love it :) although working continuously there has actually made me quite ill last night after I came home after work.
Initially it was just body all over aching pain. However, in the middle of the night
Health attacks came! );
Had burning throat, you name it, throat infection I guess?
It was really terrible, I couldn't speak properly cause it was seriously painful.
I thought drinking a few more glasses of water would probably helps, maybe in reducing the so-called burning flame my throat was having..

But worse come to worse, it was so painful that I had tears produced by my tearducts. Awww, drinking hurts!

Luckily, my 14hrs of sleep helped. (: Give thanks to my dearest Jesus! I'm alot better right now.

Ohyes, the miracle thing happened today was I had actually got tomorrow off for work. HAHA, my manager phoned me in noon, asked me why I'm not at work today, how I was doing.. Ooh, He had no idea about my reason yet. I told him that I've already informed francis who's another manager ( we have two managers) about my health's condition.

And it all got him to offer me another day of rest, which is tomorrow.
As I hang up the call, I wanted to sing hallejulah ! :D

Readers, you don't even know how hard it is to get a day off from work nowadays!
Well yeahh, I'm so so happy right now. Woohoo! (':

If you guys were wondering why I seldom update, I could tell you that I was actually very busy all these while.
I was either out with friends or working or attending church activities. :)
Caught two movies during this x'mas seasons : Arthur Christmas & Puss In The Boots. HEH (;

Both these movies were adorable! (I'm so grown-up, can't believe I would love them so much!) Um well,.. I don't know since when I like cartoons so much. Something must be really wrong with me. Uhmm.






Endless reasons that I love you.
Unforgettable look in your eyes.
I'm so caught up by the way you smile. Every. Single. Time.
(':

Love? Marriage? Kids?

Till now, I then realised and understand that everybody has different opinions towards certain things and stories.

What we have in mind, it's better if we keep it to ourselves to prevent further arguments.

What other criticisms, it's better off if we choose to ignore them and go our own way.

Because readers life is yours, you have to pave it according to your own wishes, not according to others' will.

But be sure to know that whatever outcomes your decision gets you to, you'll have to accept them willingly and overcome them with fortitude.

That's called living life the right way.

Hey guys, I'm back from my m'sia trip !

Really thank God for making it so wonderful and blessed.

Yup, I'm truly blessed by all of my relatives. Had been to many places, had been treated with yummy meals and suppers..

And that is why I said I felt really really blessed and loved.

And God is the provider, all glory to Him ;)

Aunts drove us to have our x'mas shopping, bought stuffs (well this will be a head title for everything I had bought; Yeah I'm lazy to blurt all out here..)

Saw my cousin's baby- she's adorable & beautiful too!

...and there's so much more to write.. duh

I wondered when will I finish typing all those? Wait.. No. I doubt I will finish typing.

I guess it would be best for them to remain in my brain as memories then. HAH.

And ooooh yeah, there's church for me tmrw. :o

Well yessss, there's church for me forever always sundays. Haha :D

It has to be cause God is the top priority to everything else.

Umm, shall end my post right here? /:

Alright, since there's no more big issues for me to tell you guys..

Then, a goodbye to you, for the time being !

Seriously, I feel like quitting my job. *rolled eyes*

***

I've learnt to keep my comments to myself when everyone's opinions were going the opposite direction as mine.

It doesn't matter if you have no say in the crowd, by listening you're being wise as you can learn and gain new knowledge which haven't cross your mind before.

A poem the city writes to.

Staying mundane. That's all I wanna.

God, could you grant me this tiny yet unfulfilled wish?

Hello, it's raining right here.

*Eyes closed and take a deep breath*

Even so, the weather is so good! It's cooling and plus the lovely sound of the rain falling onto the ground-i don't know how you name it, relaxing or peaceful? :)

Tomorrow will be prom day, hope i'll enjoy it regardless of what happen..

And my holidays were actually a love baggage.

Someone who is so willing to approach me and knocked on my door; I didn't know what to do.

I honestly don't feel like trying out another type of relation. It's kinda...

Uhmm.. Well I prefer to be single at this moment.

God, hopefully you can just cut it out.

Relationships doesn't hurt, it's lovely & warm.

Many says they can't live without a relationship.

And this is where we have to really understand that, we all can want for a relationship.

But.

It isn't a must-need for every one of us.

It's not like we will die without them; We still can live in satisfaction, contentment.

We don't need them to feel in love; We still have many people around us who loved us dearly.

So I really hope God can pave a pathway which is right for me as I would not like to hurt the other party.

:) I'm sure He will !

Single? I liked that. :D

Promises? I've never believe in them.

End of the rainbow. But I got peace within me.

To be honest, my hols was rather relaxing yet 'plain'.
My job wasn't on fixed daily basis. Hence, I got to keep waiting patiently for boss's calls if he needs me..
I hated it having to do so.
You know I want to work everyday, learning new things everyday instead of being like a useless slog who watch the clock ticking by. Hmph !
My heart feels so ache upon seeing minutes and seconds flying away D:
So yeah, I started complaining in my heart, and contemplating if I should get myself another job.

But mum says it'll be better if I attend the interview after our vacation.
Speaking of that
Oh no, it's coming so soon, right after prom! YAY, I'M LIKE SO HAPPY TO GET OUT OF SPORE? :D
Though it's always my mum's hometown, I still could have my x'mas shopping over there with cousins. :)

And also, prom night is next week - In the midst of preparing. (It's really tiring & exhausting!)
Feels like canceling it & came up with all sorts of bad reasons prom can bring such as waste of my time, waste of money, causing us family to have a shorter vacation, etc..
However, dad encouraged me to go still. Seeing he was supportive of me going prom
I had to listen to him :)
*Sigh*

Alrighty, gotta end this post right here. Quite weird right? Yeah I knoow.
This post is funny in a way of me writing things which jump here and there.
What's wrong with me.
...
Oh well.. *shrug and speechless*

It's late. Mum's rushing me for dinner because I kept delaying
Can't let her wait anymore.
Okay bye !

My heart belongs to Jesus.

From my life's first cry to final breath,

Jesus commands my destiny.

Hi !

I clearly remembered I'd once posted The Importance of Faith as my status in Facebook before.

Was super inspired by Jayesslee's song on youtube channel.

And hahaha yeah, you could count this as a reason why I'm here typing a blogpost regarding Faith ;)

I've talked about how Faith is often seemed insignificant to many of us.

And very very often When speaking of that tiny faith

It does not matter how great you are, what have you done

But it actually really does matters a lot - Do you have faith in yourself or not. :)

But wait a moment.

Saying you had faith is plainly just a slogan, acting out you have faith is then what makes your life more valuable .

How many one of us actually kept our faith during tough times, bitter moments in life?

I believed most of us have already failed the task of demonstrating faith in our own personal life.

We always asked our favourite questions of why is this and that happening.

We got emotionally breakdown .., etc.

It would also be lying to say we hadn't doubt ourselves before during awful times, am I right?

And today I wanna let you guys know that it is rather important to still have your faith

even in times where you felt shitty and crappy..

Admittedly, I don't give way to my mind that things will reverse by itself or

things will suddenly turn out the way that I like.

But instead, I will make them into my own history.

That is how I managed awful life issues, though sometimes yeah I admit I could get upset and really disappointed.

But as how I encouraged myself, I advised readers not to get overly sad.

And most probably you guys have heard this before :

Let your past make you better, not bitter.

Exactly. We shouldn't even dwell onto them anymore.

However that wasn't enough still.

We gotta pick up faith to drive ourselves further down the road.

Because let us think. Without faith, what are we left? What other great achievements can we possibly do?

Hmm well maybe Yes, we could still be alive. Wealthy and healthy, no broken arms or legs..

But how long can we last emotionally?

That is the reason why we need faith. Having faith in yourself. (:

Doing so, we believed we'll get better after each fall ; we'll get stronger after crying ;

we also feel better, happier when we began to cast faith into our daily life.

Otherwise, we'll keep remaining as who we are right now.

And we cannot become who we want to be if we were to remain as who we are.

Perhaps today, you came across my blog all of a sudden and read this.

And as you are here today, if you're feeling down, terrible and awful

I truly hoped this video song below and with the addition of some of my words above could stir up your emotions, spirits towards positive side and also not forgetting, to pump up your faith level that would go with you all your whole life !

The lyrics was very inspiring. I was moved :